JOURNEY

I have journeyed long enough
With and without people who are dear
And now I see
That the horizon has come so near.

When I had moved on in my journey
I used to pick those colourful pebbles
The pebbles that would remind me
Of all my childhood fables.

But as I had taken in the surroundings
The more attractive I found them to be
The pebbles in my hand slipped unknowingly
And I did not even see.

As the journey moved on and on
I picked up whatever attracted me
And basked in the pleasure
That I was moving towards what I wanted to be.

God was with me all the time
And whatever I wanted was mine
He had decided that on me
His good grace would always shine

I left my dreams, my thoughts, my hopes
For life was giving me something new
Those things that everybody wanted
But was given only a few.
My struggles had at last paid off
My journey was smooth and without fear
So I happily walked on
As the horizon came near.

As the horizon gets nearer and nearer
I look beck at all that I left behind
My eyes then went back to the things I held
The things I had always wanted to find

Suddenly the blinding light of sunset
Blazed around me
Then slowly my eyes again focused
And with clarity I began to see.

What a cruel joke God had played
When he gave whatever was wanted by me
And in my delight and greed
I had allowed him to decide
What I wanted to be

What I thought I had wanted all my life
Were all held close to me
Yet whatever I had become
Was not what I wanted to be

So at the end of life
I wearily changed my way
For even though the horizon was near
My destination was a long way.